This is my first time comming across this website, and to be quite honest I was looking to find help for me and my situatiuon. I noticed in the forum section that there are more seeking help than the ones givin it. You have seen a lot of sob stories, but I didn't see many people were planing a way to resolve their issues. I started to feel a bit better about my condition, and even gave advice to a young lady who was seeking help. Having going through countless amounts of hardships I came across a lot resources, networking, self evaluation, self learning, and had some epiphanies.
Today, I had to look in my son's eyes fill with tears at scool today when I wasn't able to pay the rental fee for his insturment. His performiong Art's teacher out right said no money no instrument, and to get it in before next week or his grades will suffer. I drove home crying because I did not have the money. I have to tell him no for so many things outside my budget for neccessities, and I couldn't afford the neccessity. My finacial aid money from school won't come for another few weeks, I have loss employment, and his father hasn't paid child support in over a year. But even before then it was sparatic. What to do? What to do? So I pray.
Having said all of this, I see this site is good for venting even if no one reads my thread. I have gotten it of my chest.
ENCOURAGEMENT
There is a time to cry, But we Must fight
You will get weary, but we must Never give up
You may not feel the love, but you must Always Love you
You may feel alone, but remember you can do bad all by yourself (you don't need a man for that)
You can feel like worthless, But value yourself as the only one your kids can depend on.
Be determined to make you situation better. As long as you are trying to do right by your children, there will always be away.
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I WILL FIGHT TO THE DEATH.